ugh!

So it's two more days until I see the a**hole again. He's flying out for the child support hearing. I kept trying to tell him he didn't have to come out. That he could just call but he's coming anyway. UGH! I'm not in the mood. His visits (the few he has made) stress me out and totally screw Ethan up. It takes him quite a while to not be emotional about his father leaving again and asking me AGAIN why we aren't in Oregon with him. So I'm just trying to prepare myself for his visit. I'm gonna see if I can get in and get my haircut. I want to look as good as possible to make him regret his decision. To think he has to go back to the ugly woman in Oregon. :) I've already lost my baby weight. Plus I can't wait to get money from him every month and he has NO choice. He's one of the most selfish people I've ever met. And I know he won't move jobs because his work was ALWAYS more important than me or even Ethan. I have a killer shirt to wear and am going to get my nails done tomorrow. I'll be prepared. He was trying to tell me what he was doing to see if I would offer to pick him up or get him to Prescott but I wouldn't say anything. Last time I chauffeured him around (for Ethan) and he never said thank you. Al tho I didn't mind because I made him go shopping and buy stuff for the boys. On another note, I'm going to Cali to stay with AH's mom and step dad, for two weeks. It'll be nice. I'll be leaving the 23rd of February. my mom is all bummed. She made a comment about me being gone for so long and I said "You can't monopolize my kids all the time mom!" I felt bad for a second and got over it. She already made me feel bad about moving out. Which is why I'm still living here. Even tho I would have WAY more room somewhere else. Oh well I'll deal. She is a great help with Owen so it kinda evens out. So that's my issues right now. Oh and I'm not doing sign language. Everyone else deflated me. I'll still try and learn on my own. I'll blog again in a few after the hearing. Ciao!