I hate being this way...

So I went to see a movie last night with my brother and I realized that since this whole ordeal with my second husband cheating on me that I'm SO cynical about anything to do with love. As much as I love movies and chick flicks I find myself thinking "that's not gonna last" or when I see a couple I think "just wait honey, he's gonna find something else later just when you think things are going great." Then after that great movie I started crying again. Thinking what is wrong with me that I can't keep a man? Why was I so completely blind that I let it get to the point that he was cheating on me? And since this happened why couldn't it be like others situations where he just doesn't come around? I don't want to see him, it makes me physically sick to see him and VERY angry to think of him. I know I'll feel better tho when I find out how much he HAS to pay for the boys every month for the rest of their lives lol. That does make me feel better :)